short story vs. long narrative
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anotheranonAnother competition, another deconstruction:
Did something very stupid in pools - I let the fact that I lost my first 3 bouts pinch my ego hard enough to affect my 4th bout. I did win, but was panting like a dog and rushing things it bugged me so that I was doing poorly. Need to remember what![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
belfebe said - no single competition is a referendum on my worth as a fencer or a person. I lost, so what - get over it, do the next thing.
I did much better in direct elimination, which is an ongoing thing - it's easier to figure out what my opponent's doing when I have 15 touches to play with rather than 5. I made it through the first DE (a first, I think?) to the pool of 16, where I finally struck out but not before rattling the cage of a rather stressed teenage fencer. I kinda felt sorry for her because she didn't seem to be having much fun, but I didn't feel enough pity not to use her frazzledness against her ;)
Other observations - fencing is not only becoming my primary physical outlet but also my main social one, which I'm not exactly happy about. My fencing buds are very cool but I do have friends who don't fence, have no interest fencing and I do miss them. Also I fear in conversation I'm turning into to something of a broken record about my latest practices and competitions, which I admit are of little interest to anyone who doesn't fence. I need to work on this - like drag my lazy carcass further into the cold than the 5 minutes it takes to get to club!
Did something very stupid in pools - I let the fact that I lost my first 3 bouts pinch my ego hard enough to affect my 4th bout. I did win, but was panting like a dog and rushing things it bugged me so that I was doing poorly. Need to remember what
belfebe said - no single competition is a referendum on my worth as a fencer or a person. I lost, so what - get over it, do the next thing.I did much better in direct elimination, which is an ongoing thing - it's easier to figure out what my opponent's doing when I have 15 touches to play with rather than 5. I made it through the first DE (a first, I think?) to the pool of 16, where I finally struck out but not before rattling the cage of a rather stressed teenage fencer. I kinda felt sorry for her because she didn't seem to be having much fun, but I didn't feel enough pity not to use her frazzledness against her ;)
Other observations - fencing is not only becoming my primary physical outlet but also my main social one, which I'm not exactly happy about. My fencing buds are very cool but I do have friends who don't fence, have no interest fencing and I do miss them. Also I fear in conversation I'm turning into to something of a broken record about my latest practices and competitions, which I admit are of little interest to anyone who doesn't fence. I need to work on this - like drag my lazy carcass further into the cold than the 5 minutes it takes to get to club!
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Date: 2009-01-28 03:48 am (UTC)Re interests and friends: I've always found that these things are a little like tides ... the level of obsession with a particular hobby peaks and ebbs over and over (especially when there's skill-building involved) and the bestest buddies know you'll surface eventually (especially if they also have a wide range of interests, 'cause then the same thing is going on in their lives)