strange day
Nov. 21st, 2005 10:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
anotheranonOut of sorts today. Nothing horrible, just feeling kind of flaky and anxious and wrong. Part of it is probably the weather, the other part impending travel and high-impact family. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and have fun when I visit, but I usually find myself falling back into old bad habits and want to kick myself when I get home for not saying/doing more, or at least different.
My left hand is cramped from a furious death-grip on some hand sewing last night. On the other hand, I DID turn off the tv and got to some of my massive reading backlog.
Rather incredibly, part of the backlog that got read included 3 of the 4 articles I photocopied from the Textile Museum library a couple of weekends ago. It is criminal that I've lived here ~10 years yet never visited before until Shem kicked my arse up there! It's barely a half-hour away on public transportation and it's open until 4 pm, free of charge Saturdays.
And it's marvelous, just what a small library should be - cushy but straight backed chairs for maximum comfort/minimum dozing off, polite helpful staff and just stacks and stacks of books and scholarly magazines and exhibit catalogs to prowl through until your eyes can't take anymore! I must go again, and soon - whenever I have a Saturday at loose ends there's no reason not to!
The truth is that I'm a slave to routine and desperately disorganized when routine doesn't fill my time. It's not that I'm incapable of time management - my grades have proven that - but I think I've always viewed "free time" as necessarily free of structure. Given the depth of some of my hobbies, this is no longer practical if I plan to enjoy them or learn anything.
Much to ponder.
My left hand is cramped from a furious death-grip on some hand sewing last night. On the other hand, I DID turn off the tv and got to some of my massive reading backlog.
Rather incredibly, part of the backlog that got read included 3 of the 4 articles I photocopied from the Textile Museum library a couple of weekends ago. It is criminal that I've lived here ~10 years yet never visited before until Shem kicked my arse up there! It's barely a half-hour away on public transportation and it's open until 4 pm, free of charge Saturdays.
And it's marvelous, just what a small library should be - cushy but straight backed chairs for maximum comfort/minimum dozing off, polite helpful staff and just stacks and stacks of books and scholarly magazines and exhibit catalogs to prowl through until your eyes can't take anymore! I must go again, and soon - whenever I have a Saturday at loose ends there's no reason not to!
The truth is that I'm a slave to routine and desperately disorganized when routine doesn't fill my time. It's not that I'm incapable of time management - my grades have proven that - but I think I've always viewed "free time" as necessarily free of structure. Given the depth of some of my hobbies, this is no longer practical if I plan to enjoy them or learn anything.
Much to ponder.
