crash

[anotheranon]

Today my supervisor and I had a Chat - you know, one of those where they close the door and you're sure you're going to get reprimanded/fired/handed a hellacious project.

Turns out he was just concerned at how tired I looked. He wasn't the first person to comment on it today, either. Myself, I've noticed how puffy and droopy my face is in the mirror for quite awhile now.

Yeah, yeah - I'm burning the candle at both ends, part of a weird mental balancing act that insists that if I let go for a second, everything in my life will fall to shit. Also not helped by the fact that I have a real problem relaxing without getting distracted.

If I could get away to a cabin in the middle of nowhere with a bag of books, I'd do it. As I can't, I will probably end up taking a couple of personal days over the holidays, if only to sleep.

Comments

[emerald14.livejournal.com]

Take time off *before* the holidays. Seriously. If you're that shattered then take a few days sick leave otherwise you'll crash and burn, and that can have long term consequences (speaking from experience) ;)

Hope you feel better babe *hugs*

[tommdroid.livejournal.com]

time for some hardcore experimenting and logic. sit back, relax, let go for a second...did everything in your life fall to shit?

then try with two seconds........;))

distraction is great relaxation, if I go from top speed directly to fully relaxed I get migrain. I have to watch a movie or read or work alittle on my home study programming projects or have sex. gradually relaxing.

[anotheranon.livejournal.com]

Yes, yes... logically, I KNOW this, but the real problem is training my mind to shut down. Even if I'm physically at rest, my mind will still be doing 120 in a 55 zone for a couple of hours at least, particularly if there's anything nearby that needs "doing". Hence the need to isolate myself :/

I think I may take a couple of days to do just this. Maybe even go look at the local museums - we have a lot of good ones here and it's been awhile since I visited!