never enough
Mar. 15th, 2009 08:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
anotheranonSo, I went to Summer Nationals qualifiers today..
I didn't qualify. That didn't surprise me. What did, to my chagrin, was that my results were completely expected - apart from the odd touch for or against, I did about how I thought I'd do.
Which is disappointing, partly because I (as always) wanted to do better, but also just because it confirms the plateau I'm on: win a couple in pools, just enough to get me to DE, then strike out with 7-8 touches in the first DE.
Dull, dull.
Sometimes a plateau heralds a jump forward. I hope this is the case this time.
Or maybe I don't - doing better = more attention, and I HATE to be the focus of concentrated attention. I am not good at being "the star".
Hmm - might need to work on that as well.
I didn't qualify. That didn't surprise me. What did, to my chagrin, was that my results were completely expected - apart from the odd touch for or against, I did about how I thought I'd do.
Which is disappointing, partly because I (as always) wanted to do better, but also just because it confirms the plateau I'm on: win a couple in pools, just enough to get me to DE, then strike out with 7-8 touches in the first DE.
Dull, dull.
Sometimes a plateau heralds a jump forward. I hope this is the case this time.
Or maybe I don't - doing better = more attention, and I HATE to be the focus of concentrated attention. I am not good at being "the star".
Hmm - might need to work on that as well.
