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Well, psych doc said that I needed to start taking my anti-anxiety med twice a day again. We had tried to taper off, but.. its not working out as planned. And there are so many other factors playing in - weight loss, birth control, change in diet, etc. that it isn't certain that this will even make a difference.

And then supervisor asks if I'm ok and makes a bit of a fuss - which I hate in general, but especially from people I work with, and especially when I've just been to the psychiatrist.

I try and keep a division between my work/non work relationships - given some of my interests and stances, I never feel like I can "be myself" with people at work - I always wear a "professional face" at work. Therefore I get a bit miffed when people make an excessive fuss over a non-work related thing.

I also don't like to advertise the fact that I'm seeing a psychiatrist and am taking anti-depressants to all and sundry. Though I wish my brain functioned like it ought, I can recognize that it is a chemical imbalance, but I am aware that some people can't understand the difference between a mild medication and a "happy pill". So I don't wanna talk about it.

Anyway..

Hopefully I'll get this anxiety/euphoria flip-flop under control and be able to focus and get some (you guessed it) sewing done. I laid out the jacket tonight; tomorrow I hope to lay out the lining and maybe some of the interfacing.

Also got a bunch of iridescent green beads in different shades last week - I've been wanting to do some more copper jewelry and green always goes so well with it. So until I figure out what else I like with copper, this will be a fun experiment.

Nuff for now. It's warm and humid tonight, I know D. will want to turn on the air conditioning but its just not that warm just yet. I think I will go to the relative cool/dry of the basement and stretch a bit before I go to bed.