taking a break
Jun. 19th, 2003 07:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
anotheranonWork has been intense for the past couple of days, and idjit me did something weird to my back exercising yesterday, so I have chosen not to go to fencing tonight.
This is just as well, as the sky has turned BLACK with the upcoming thunderstorm - we're under flash flood watch until morning, so bugging out for tonight is perhaps not such a loss!
I have got to get over this hyper-responsibility thing.
I am finding increasingly that I have great difficulty slacking off. At work this is most noticeable because even though now I have help, I am reluctant to delegate to anyone. I've embraced the notion of "if you want it done right, do it yourself" a little too firmly and it's killing me. I even try to remember everything for everyone else, and wind up forgetting my own appointments in the process.
Even at home this is a problem - I feel like I can't let my hair down for a SECOND because someone has got to make the food, pay the bills, clean the cat litter, etc. D. is very good at doing what I ask, but even finding out what needs to be delgated to him is yet another chore.
I would dearly love to blow off work and just lay around the house tomorrow, but I know I won't do it, even though I have enough vacation stored up. Reasons being: I feel like I'd be imposing my crazy workload on my workmates, because even if I'm not there, these things are time-sensitive and Must Happen, and 2) even if I were at home, I'd find something that needed to be done.
Next Friday I may treat myself to a day off, but if, and only if, I think I can responsibly get away with it
My one irresponsibility of the day was ordering pizza for dinner. I was too tired/achey to cook, and dammit, I've not ordered out in over a month, and haven't had pizza since probably sometime in January. Go me (?)
This is just as well, as the sky has turned BLACK with the upcoming thunderstorm - we're under flash flood watch until morning, so bugging out for tonight is perhaps not such a loss!
I have got to get over this hyper-responsibility thing.
I am finding increasingly that I have great difficulty slacking off. At work this is most noticeable because even though now I have help, I am reluctant to delegate to anyone. I've embraced the notion of "if you want it done right, do it yourself" a little too firmly and it's killing me. I even try to remember everything for everyone else, and wind up forgetting my own appointments in the process.
Even at home this is a problem - I feel like I can't let my hair down for a SECOND because someone has got to make the food, pay the bills, clean the cat litter, etc. D. is very good at doing what I ask, but even finding out what needs to be delgated to him is yet another chore.
I would dearly love to blow off work and just lay around the house tomorrow, but I know I won't do it, even though I have enough vacation stored up. Reasons being: I feel like I'd be imposing my crazy workload on my workmates, because even if I'm not there, these things are time-sensitive and Must Happen, and 2) even if I were at home, I'd find something that needed to be done.
Next Friday I may treat myself to a day off, but if, and only if, I think I can responsibly get away with it
My one irresponsibility of the day was ordering pizza for dinner. I was too tired/achey to cook, and dammit, I've not ordered out in over a month, and haven't had pizza since probably sometime in January. Go me (?)
