embracing the suck a little too tightly
Jun. 27th, 2011 09:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
anotheranonYesterday was my first competition since earning the E. It was also my first open (all levels welcome) in awhile, with lots of Big Scary People(TM).
I've come to accept that at events like this I'm likely to be the pool's buttmonkey, but was a little too accepting: I was relaxed but not alert. The under-stimulation was a nice change from my usual inner dialog (ably put to poetry at Badgerosity, especially the bit about kids who have no right to be that good), but not especially effective.
Managed to get my head online enough to get 3 touches (one of them intelligent) against a tall fast B in my direct elimination bout, but it was very much too little, too late.
I've spent so much time this season chasing my rating at D and under events that I've forgotten what open events are like. I should probably get back into that.
I've come to accept that at events like this I'm likely to be the pool's buttmonkey, but was a little too accepting: I was relaxed but not alert. The under-stimulation was a nice change from my usual inner dialog (ably put to poetry at Badgerosity, especially the bit about kids who have no right to be that good), but not especially effective.
Managed to get my head online enough to get 3 touches (one of them intelligent) against a tall fast B in my direct elimination bout, but it was very much too little, too late.
I've spent so much time this season chasing my rating at D and under events that I've forgotten what open events are like. I should probably get back into that.
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Date: 2011-06-29 09:54 pm (UTC)Good to see you testing your skill level out in the big pool again ... even if you weren't where you'd like to be, you need this to keep yourself accurate on where you are, where you want to be and what you still need to do to get there (all things I know you're aware of, but I figure it's nice for you to know that your fans grasp that as well).
I still say you're gonna be one of those BSP one day ... especially because I've watched your awareness and analysis of the physicality and precision of the art (and it IS an art as much as it is a sport) grow and become more detailed over the time you've LJed about it. You have been evolving. :-)